Every year, I give dozens of workshops and retreats on topics of sexuality, intimacy, love and relationships in various countries, including Belgium, Holland, South Africa, Greece, Russia and other.
I follow about the same amount of them for my personal continuous development. I love being in a relationship. Today I stopped giving relationships any labels. I believe that everyone is free to choose what works for them in this given moment of their life. Sexuality was always a central theme in my life. I have known the sexual pulse at the base of my spine, in the perineum area, causing contractions in the genitals and lower belly since I remember myself, while still being a child.
Back then I did not know what it was. Oh dear, I could not stop it, even if I really wanted to! And so I was fighting it fiercely, and it was intense every day! I thought I had a rare handicap.
As a teenager of 15, I went to a shrink determined to finally fix it once and for all. That woman turned out to be my savior - finally someone started bringing light into the whole situation. It was too far out for me. I had been ashamed of this annoying and yet pleasurable pulse all my life. She explained to me that all children feel the sexual energy to a certain degree, some only slightly in some situations, and some very few children have it very intense.
Unfortunately, she said, parents are not educated about it, and they try to fight it instead of teaching a child how to move it. She worked with me to release shame and taught me to love and embrace the pulse. That was the start of my healing which continued for many years after. I explored a lot but it was not until I came across Tantra that I actually realized a whole new dimension of sexuality and the deep fulfillment it can bring on all levels. Gratitude to life became a natural response.
