My abuse started in the County Jail where I was raped by four inmates. He said that I should come down out of the air. Still I was being asked for sex and told that I would have to give myself over one way or another; at this point looking back on the matter , I can see that I was going through a brake down mentally.
Anyway that night I'd made up my mind that I was taking my life for it seemed as if that was the only way out of that Hell. So the sleeping medication they was giving me, I saved for 8 days which came to mg and I took them. It is truly impossible to put into words what goes through one's mind when becoming a victim of rape.
Being made into a person of no self worth, [being] remade into what ever the person or gang doing the raping wants you to be. Inmate is an effeminate with a proclivity toward being sexually assaulted. He cannot mainline at San Quentin. Outside of prison, his looks might peg him as a nerdy intellectual: bookish but not necessarily effeminate.
Rare among inmates, he claims two years of college education, having worked for a time as a substitute teacher in Baltimore. All of his crimes are nonviolent: car theft, burglary, etc. Although R. Sticking a sharpened mop bucket handle into the soft skin of his neck, they warned him, "You're going to do what we want or you're going to die.
That morning in the inmate dining hall R. The lieutenant showed no interest in discovering who had committed the rape, but he did move R. In , R. There he was placed in a large overcrowded dormitory that held at least people. Due to a bunk shortage, R. He was awakened at about 4 a. They held a razor to his throat and forced him to give them oral sex.
